Over the course of the average lifetime you meet a lot of people. Some of them stick with you through thick and thin. Some weave their way through your life and disappear forever. But once in a while someone comes along who earns a permanent place in your heart.

the guys at work tell me that if a girl dates a guy who's still schooling, she'll be the one always treating him stuffs and buying him gifts and there isn't a single chance that'll he'll do the same. in short she'll be wearing the pants while he wears the skirt? he just loves you for your money la (ah, yang ni i tak bole angkat) and guys who haven't gone through ns will totally change once they've undergone through it? well that is too early to judge. but insyaallah you are not like what those guys said. they just love to toy with my heart and feelings. i believe in you, honey. that you will make it big someday. :)

i wanna say a BIG thank you to my mamat ganteng for helping me carry my shopping bags, yesterday hehehe. you're the best! and i love you. i'm glad you enjoyed popeyes(i know it's been a long time haha) and the other thing lol. i still wanna buy you a damn collar shirt, remember that! and i'm left with buying me a nice pair of slippers and my hair serum which i've yet to survey. overall, good day! :D

at long last we turned 11th! so proud of us! i still, carry your heart with me and i am never without it. :D i remember the time when we were getting to know each other. you were expressive back then and was not shy to tell me about your feelings which i pretended to be doubtful and your reply will always be, "tak caye? listen to my heartbeat" and i did! hahaha selenger. i hope we stay like this, hsppy together.

today i landed myself in hot soup. i know its no point regretting but i still do. my record has been tarnished(i think?). i wanna thank roshan for cheering me up straight after that else not i would just cry and cry.

one thing i've learned from him but always failed to drill it inside my head is that life has its ups and down. that i've got stand up everytime i fall or else i won't succeed in life. roshan also told me that i was a softy which is no good. haha ok i've heard that alot.. the softy part. but isn't that a positive trait? maybe i should change my ways. but does that mean changing my entire self?

many things have changed eversince i left school. the gap between being a teenager and a young adult is well, big and i have my boyfriend to thank for, for telling me that things are no longer the same now. believe it or not, i was upset that i had to work on hari raya haji because i thought i made it clear to myself that family is top priority but that day required me to work so i had no choice. in my mind i kept on saying, Ya Allah forgive me for neglecting my family.

last time, i used to ask for my parents for money but now i've got to support my own. it's definitely a challenge for me but alhamdullilah, i've not overspent. also i used to have alot of free time in hand but now free time is hard to get. but Allah never gives me problems without solutions. thus i'm thankful for all past problems cause i have definitely grown out of it. it has made wiser if not alot, little?

anyway on a brighter note, i can't wait for what they call the BIG BONUS this fall! alhamdullilah rezeki lebih. which also means my savings should be no less! :O

just letting you know that you are special in my eyes too. :)